note of the writer: English isn’t my native language so if there’s some grammar mistakes I’m sorry. :)
Chapter 1
Ivy’s P.O.V
The vapor it’s all over the bathroom making the mirror blur. I can’t stop crying, but I’m doing my best to cry in silence like usual so my mum won’t be able to hear me.
Well, not that she actually would, she’s too busy working, taking care of my brothers and having huge arguments with my dad.
I rub my eyes trying to make the tears stop to falling but all I could get was my mascara all over my face making me look like a zombie. I slowly take my clothes off and enter in the bath, the water it’s so warm, which makes me feel comfortable, well at least for a while.
After a long time with the most part of my body under water my skin it’s all wrinkled.
I grab a towel and wrap that around my naked and still wet body.
I sit on the edge of my bed and look to my phone; it says that I have 2 messages which means I’ll have to go out soon.
When I unlock the fist says:
“Ivy, meet us at the park :) -K x”
Great, now I gotta socialize with my’ friends’, I quickly reply:
“Okay – I x”
And the second is from Ellie:
“Hey Ivy can u borrow me your math lesson? Lol seriously girl, I’ve no clue about how to finish those exercises! –E x”
I reply:
“Sure – I x”
Then I pick some random outfit and quickly go downstairs.
“Where are you going Ivy?” my mum asked me
“Meet the girls at the park” I replied
“Alright, see you later” She grinned which is quite weird for her, who spend 90% of the time moody and complaining about every little thingy that I do.
I go outside and it’s quite warm, which made me regret a bit about my choice of wearing jeans, shirt and converse, but I’m not in the mood to go back inside and change my clothes so I start to make my way to the park.
After a few minutes walking, I finally reach the park.
“Hey, oh my God I thought that you wouldn’t come anymore!” Kristy said
“Well, I’m here” I grinned
“OH MY GOD, ELLIE COME HERE!” Annie shouted behind me like crazy.
“For God’s sake Annie!” I said
“Ohh… Seems like someone it’s not in her best mood today, uh Ivy?!” Kristy said laughing
I just faked a smile
They don’t care; they just stand there talking about their vain little problems.
They just hang out with me because I’m the one who don’t complain, the one who can borrow the math lesson, the one that is too shy to say” I hate you and you’re a fake bitch!” even thought that’s what I think everyday!
They never ask how I’m feeling and that’s because they don’t give a shit. Simples
“Urgh, I’m so hungry!” Ellie said to me, interrupting my thoughts
“Me too, I’m gonna buy something then, do you guys want anything?” I asked trying to make myself out of that situation for a while.
“Yeah, a coke please” Ellie said giving me a few money
“Okay” I said making my way to the little food store. I don’t even know what’s the name of that kind of store, is like a mini market or something? I laughed loud to my own thought.
Yeah, I do that quite a lot; actually I talk with myself more often than with my friends. And I also have inside jokes! I grinned.
I look to my right side and there’s a curly haired guy looking at me and chuckling.
Oh shit! I was probably making weirdo facial expressions again! This means he’s probably thinking that I’m crazy! Great!
I look to the other side pretending that I didn’t see him.
After buying Ellie’s coke and some snacks for me I go back to the group but after a few minutes of conversation they went back home.
It’s still early and I don’t want to go back home for now, so I walk a while and find a place to sit under a huge and old tree. I put my IPod to shuffle and ‘Mayday Parade- Terrible things’ pops up so I close my eyes and stood there listening to my music, I couldn’t listen anything but the music now, not even my thoughts, which is amazing!
After a long time the sun started to burn my face making me open my eyes. I look to my phone and is just 4:30 pm. Oh you must be kidding with me…
I grab my bag and start to search for another place to chill; there are a lot of people here for 4:30 pm I mean… People usually would be at the work or something like that, right? That’s weird.
I see a place with almost no one, so I walk and took a sit then I take my book inside of my bag and start to read.
Suddenly I hear someone shouting really loud “NIALLL, NO!!!” but before I could lift my head to see what was that a football ball hits me on the face. I quickly feel my whole face burn.
“WHAT THE…”I said throwing my book in the grass.
“Oh fuck!” Someone said but I couldn’t see his face yet
“Hey are you okay?” a tall boy ran towards me and asked
“ermm, yeah, I think so..” I said embarrassed
“Oh, I’m so so so so sorry!” A blonde boy said in an Irish accent
“Uh, that’s okay” I said picking my book and my bag from the floor
“Oh shit!” the blonde boy said looking at my face, I don’t know if he was surprised or terrified.
“What?” I asked confused
“Your lip, it’s bleeding!” he said looking a bit guilty
I touch my lips with my fingers and yeah… I’m bleeding. Great! Another awkward moment for my list!
“HEY, VAS HAPPENIN’ GUISE?!” A boy shouted with a funny voice making me giggle
“Not now Louis!” The blonde boy said nervously
“What’s the problem?” He asked now with a serious expression.
“Niall hit her face with a football ball and now she’s bleeding” The tall one said
“WELL DONE NIALL!” a tan boy with cute hazel eyes said sarcastically. Wow how many fit boys will pops up in this afternoon?!
“Whoa guys, , I’ll survive!” I chuckled
They stopped to talk and looked at me; actually they started to stare at my face in silence. Jesus, how awkward!
“Niall, I brought food, from NANDOS!” another boy shouted but I couldn’t see his face because of the other boys who were standing around me.
“Niall don’t want food now “Louis said
“What? Why not?” The voice said confused. But now the boys stopped to staring at me and the boy walked to my direction. He has curly hair and greeny eyes, wait… Oh shit, is the boy from earlier! Oh God, this is getting worse each minute, seriously!
He looked straight at me and I don’t know why but he started to laugh
“Why the heck are you laughing Harry?” The blonde guy said
“What are you guys doing’ with her, she looks so freaked out, are you trying to kidnap her or something?!” He said laughing
“Shut up Harry, she’s bruised!” he said looking frustrated
“What?” Harry said almost hyperventilating
“Niall hit a football ball on her face and now her lip is bleeding” The tall boy said not looking that amused
“Oh…” Harry stopped laughing but now he’s staring again making me feel so awkward.
I was stood there with my awkwardness so I grabbed my bag and said “ Alright then, I’m okay guys and this its awkward enough for a day, so I better go now, Byeee” and I started to walk
“Hey, wait!” I felt someone grabbing my arm
“Seriously dude, I’m okay!” I said
“Uh… I know you’re okay” He said embarrassed “I just want to ask if … you don’t want to eat with us, there’s a lot of food here and … well.. I think my Irish friend over there won’t be able to eat till you forgive him, and he loves Nandos!!” He giggled
Wow, he’s so cute… I thought while he was speaking. His curls were fallen over his forehead and his greeny blue eyes were shining with the sunlight.
“Ermm, okay” I giggled and started to walk with him towards the boys
“HEY… She’s back!” Louis shouted
“I’m back” I giggled
“So… Let’s eat?” Niall asked
“Oh… I knew that all that concerns wouldn’t be able to take your hungry off!” Louis laughed
“Oh… I mean.. If it’s okay for you!” He said awkward looking at me making everyone burst in laughs
Chapter 2
Ivy’s p.o.v
I swear to God that school is killing my soul slowly! Thank God the last time is almost finishing!
“Ivy, what you’re going to do today?” Ellie asks me almost whispering so the teacher won’t catch us.
“Ermm, I don’t know… I think I’ll have to go out with my mum” I lied trying to escape of anything she was about to propose to me.
Yeah, I’m pretty antisocial sometimes! But honestly I rather stay in home by myself than go out with some fake people and have to listen nothing but vain bullshit!
“Oh, okay” She replied and BAM is Friday and the class is finally over!
I quickly pick my things, throw them inside my bag and start to make my way out of the school.
My school isn’t far from home, so I go walking under the pouring rain while listening music in my iPod. When I reach my street I can see a black car in front of my house. And believe in me… Someone who watch the amount of horror/psycho movies that I do always think in the worst things possible!
So I walk slowly towards my house and when I reach that I try to unlock the front door as soon as possible, even though it don’t even seems that have someone inside the car!
“Hey!!” A husky voice says behind me making me jump. When I turn around ready for punch some psycho on the face there he is… Harry with his curls and a lovely grin on his lips.
“Oh my God Harry!?! Are you trying to kill me or something?” I shouted
“Oh, sorry, I didn’t think I’d scare you!”He said laughing
“Yeah, I’m seeing!” I said punching his arm.
“So what you were doing then?”He asked smiling
“Ermm, I was in school, why?” I replied confused
“Well, I knocked your door and no one answered so I had to wait!” He grinned
“Wait, so you were inside of that car waiting me for how long?”
“I don’t know… An hour or something…”
“Why would someone do that??” I asked extremely confused and feeling an urge of laughing but I was trying to handle it or I might look like a crazy!
“Well, I was doing nothing in home alone so I thought about come and meet you!”
“Uh… Alright then”
“So…” He said sarcastically
“Oh sorry… ermm… Do want to come in?” I asked awkwardly
“Finally! Haha” He chuckled
“Hey is not my fault that you have nothing to do with your spare time!” I said grinning. Is it weird that we’re joking and laughing like if we knowing each other for ages when we actually met for the first time yesterday?!
I don’t know… He just, makes me smile.
Harry’s P.O.V
Is it weird that I waited almost two hours inside of car to meet a girl that I only knew yesterday?
I don’t know why but she has something that makes me want to stay around. She’s so lovely but at the same time her eyes looks so sad!
I don’t know… maybe I’m going crazy! But I’m here anyways joking and laughing with her in her house.
“So you want something to drink or to eat, I don’t know… “She grinned
“No, thanks” I replied
“Oh, okay but I’m going to eat because I was in school the whole day and I’m starving!” She said making me laugh. She’s too cute!
We walked to her kitchen and I took a sit while she prepared a sandwich for herself.
“Can you please pick a knife for me over there?” she said pointing the knife next to me.
“Yeah!” I said and handed the knife to her but when she leaned to pick it I saw something that made me freeze. Behind the amount of bracelets that she had in her wrist was a few scars and I prayed for not being what I was thinking that it was.
“Harry?” she asked confused
“Oh, sorry… “I said giving the knife to her and going back to my sit.
“Ivy, can I ask you something?” I asked serious
“Ermm, yeah” she replied
I walked towards her and grabbed her hand. I think she was embarrassed because her cheeks suddenly become extremely pink.
“Why do you hurt yourself?”
“What??” She asked confused
“Your wrist…”
“Uh… There’s… Is not what it seems…” she tried to explain but her voice was barely leaving her throat.
“Hey, it’s okay… You don’t need to lie to me or explain nothing… I just want you to promise me one thing: You’ll stop doing that, right?”
“I…”
“Ivy…”
Suddenly she got angry and looked at me nervously.
“Harry, you can’t just appear in my life one day starts to act like if you know me, I don’t do this because I like, alright?! And you can’t just say ‘Ivy you gotta stop cutting’ For God’s sake… What you are? My best friend? When you leave my house you won’t even remember my name and I’ll stay here with all my problems, so shut up… You’re not allowed to say anything to me!” She shouted angrily and started to cry
“Ivy…I’m not being mean to you! I’m just trying to help!”I said and put my arms around her shoulders pressing her face against my chest.
“I’ll be here for you, I won’t leave you… “I said almost whispering
She looked at me and said more angrily than before “How can you say that? Seriously the last thing I need now is a lie Harry!” and started to walk upstairs
“Ivy… Wait! “I shouted
She stopped and I walk towards her.
“I’m not lying! Life may be really harsh for you, but I promise to you… I’ll help you!”
She tried to contain herself but the tears started to pour down her face again so I hugged her tight hopping that this time she won’t run.
So in a few minutes a chilling conversation turned into a deep confession about her problems. It was like a hurricane that hit her, or maybe that hit me.
Chapter 3
Ivy’s P.O.V
I woke up and my whole body hurts, that’s what I get after sleeping in the couch. Wait, I didn’t remember of sleeping in the couch! I just remember of… Harry!
I quickly sat in the couch and start to search for him but it seems that I’m alone…. I was dreaming?! But … What kind of dream was this?! Oh my God!
“Hey sleepy!” a husky voice says behind me making me jump. I look over my shoulder to find Harry with a plate full of food
“I made tea!” He chuckled showing his dimples
“Erm… May I ask why?” I asked quite confused
“Well, I thought you would be hungry after the sleep!” He said and took a sit next me
“So… Let’s eat?” He said and smiled once again making me feel butterflies all over my tummy
“Ermm, yeah! “ I grinned and grabbed a glass of juice. The whole time that I was eating he kept staring at me making me feel super uncomfortable.
As soon as I finished to eat he asked me what I was up to do then but I couldn’t think in anything so I just asked what I was already wondering.
“I don’t know, but first, I’ve just slept in the couch and you thought about making some tea?” I asked confused
“Erm… Actually you fell asleep in my lap after crying for like an hour” He said looking to the ground
“Oh…”
“And I didn’t want you to wake up because you were sleeping so quiet and like I didn’t want you to wake up alone either I just went out to bring some food and I made some tea!” He said and smiled
Oh my God… Why would someone make something like that for me? I don’t get why Harry would do that! I only knew him yesterday and he’s being all cute and kind to me… People usually don’t even ask if I’m okay…
“I’m… Sorry Harry!” I said looking to the ground
“What Why?” He asked confused
“For being annoying and making you listen all my ‘drama life’!” I said trying to be funny but I knew that I wasn’t being funny at all
“Ivy, you don’t need to apologize for anything!” He said and grabbed my hands making me look straight to his greeny blue eyes “I’m here whenever you want to talk… You just need to call me and I’ll be right here, Okay?” He said making me cringe
“Ermm, okay” I replied and he hugged me. Why was he hugging me? Things are so weirdo today! Oh my God!
“Ermm, thanks Harry!” I said almost whispering
Chapter 4
6 Months later
Truth is…Meet Harry was one of the best things that could happen; we become best friends and to be honest whenever I’m with him is like if my whole world stopped and I didn’t need to thought about my problems.
“Harry…” I say quietly looking to the ground
“Yeah?” He replied without looking at me. His eyes were fixed at the TV.
“If you could wish one thing, what it would be?” I asked grinning
“I would wish for you to shut up so I could watch the TV!” He said chuckling as I punch his arm laughing.
“Oh… alright then, I think I might go home!” I said walking towards the front door
“No wait!” He said and ran after me grabbing my waist and pulling me back
“You can stay for a little while, you know… I would love someone to make me some company!” He said raising an eyebrow
“I don’t think you need my company since you have the TV, uh?” I said chuckling
“Well… yeah but the TV is not as pretty as you!” he said being the usually flirty lad that he is and I didn’t take that serious since I’m used to him flirting to everyone all the time.
“Oh, well… then why you keep staring at that instead of admire my beauty??” I said sarcastically
“I’m sorry then! Let me admire your beauty!” He said sliding his hand down my back and giving me chills
“Oh ok, let’s watch some sexy TV then!” I said moving away from his arms
Yes, Harry gives me chills, yes… he flirts with me all the time, and yeah maybe there’s an undeniable sexual tension between us but no, we’re nothing but friends!
Also, I have lots of ‘problems’ to fix and having ‘thingys’ with my best friend is not a good option.
I still cut, sometimes more than I should… but Harry doesn’t knows about it
He thinks I’ve stopping doing that long time ago but truth is that even with him I’m still feeling depressed and no matter what I do I still feel a weight on my chest and sadness that doesn’t go away.
“I think I might go now…” I said remembering that I’m lying to him this whole time even though I promised him that I would never cut again and that there would be no lies between us.
“Wait… You can sleep here tonight if you want to!” He said smiling
“What? I don’t think so…” I said raising an eyebrow
“C’mon girl, you rather go home and have to face your drama family?” He said sarcastically
“Well, what am I going to say to my mum?” I sighed
“Say that you’re gonna sleep in Harry’s house…” he simply said like if that was the most normal thing in the whole world
“Harry, first of all…my mum doesn’t believe that we’re just friends, my brothers keep mocking me saying that I love you and now that I finally finished school I need to go to college tomorrow morning!”
“Well, first of all… you’re older enough to do whatever you want, I can drive you to college tomorrow morning since I have to go to the work and oh… your brothers are right. You love me!” He said chuckling
The worst thing ever is going to college and keeps living in your family’s house. My mum keeps thinking that I’m 14 and that annoys the shit out of me.
“Okay curly, you win!” I sighed “But… you’ll have to borrow me your pj’s!” I said laughing
“Oh you can sleep naked if you want to though, I don’t mind!” he said chuckling
“Oh shut up Harry!” I said hitting his arm
After a few minutes looking for something in his wardrobe he finally hands me a white t shirt
“You can dress this!” He said grinning
“Erm… Ok thanks” I said suspiciously
“Now you want to eat something?” He asked walking to the kitchen
“Erm.. No thanks” I replied “You know what’s funny? Louis lives here as well but I never see him in your house!” I chuckled
“Well… he’s always in Hayley’s house!” He said grinning
“The love is in the air!” I chuckled
“Yeah… well, I think I need a girlfriend!” Harry said smirking
“Yeah, I think you need!” I laughed
“Well, but the spare time that I have to go outside and look for a girlfriend I spend with this girl named Ivy who keeps saying how perv I am!” He said sarcastically
“I’m sorry, but is not my fault that you don’t have a girlfriend!” I said laughing
“Yes it is, and you know what? That’s pretty painful, I feel lonely sometimes… I just wish I had a lovely girl to cuddle with in cold nights as tonight!” He said with puppy eyes dog
“Awww, poor curly!” I said hugging him.
Harry is way taller than me so I look like a little kid when I hug him but who doesn’t like to hug tall boys, right?
I could listen his heart beating and for a little second I just wished that I could freeze that moment! It’s amazing how I feel safe in Harry’s arms.
“Well, I’ll pick some movies so we can watch… In bed!” He said creeping as usual
“Yeah, you wish…” I said going to the bathroom
When I go back to the living room Harry has already made the popcorn.
“Oh you made the popcorn! How cute!” I said taking a sit on the edge of the couch
“Well, I’m trying to be polite!” He grinned and slotted the CD into the DVD player before moving back to the couch where I was sat.
“Popcorn?” He asked handing me the bowl as I grabbed a few in my hand dropping some in my lap.
“Oh shit” I said getting up and trying to clean my t shirt
“You’re so awkward!” he said laughing
“Thanks curly!” I said sarcastically as I sat in the couch once again
“What movie we’re going to watch?” I asked looking at him
“Taxi Driver” He said with his eyes fixed on the screen
“Oh, what kind of movie is that Harry?? Put some movie that I can actually watch without sleep!” I complained
“What movie you want to watch then moody?” He asked annoyed
“I don’t know… I like ‘PS: I Love You’!” I said grinning
“I don’t think I have this movie here but Louis always watches girl’s movies let me check in his room” he said walking to Louis room
After a few minutes he’s back handing a CD
“500 Days of summer!” he said showing me as I nodded
“Ok, let’s watch then…” He said sitting in the couch next to me.
As the time passed I could feel some kind of awkwardness growing between us.
I don’t know if he was getting bored of the movie but he started to stare at me and I couldn’t help but look back, even feeling uncomfortable.
“What?” I asked awkwardly
“What what?” He chuckled
“Why are you staring at me like that?” I asked chuckling nervously
“Well, I’m pretty bored!” He said chuckling like if he already knew about something that we could do to end the boredom.
“Well, and what you want to do about it?” I asked not knowing yet what’s he was planning
“Are you thirsty?” He asked raising an eyebrow
“Erm… yeah I guess” I replied suspicious
“Ok, let me see if I find something in the fridge” He said and walked to the kitchen coming back with a vodka bottle
“Surprise!” he shouted
“Alcohol? Really Harry?!” I said raising an eyebrow
“Oh c’mon, you’re not in your mum’s house…” He said teasing me
I sighed knowing that I would regret of what I was about to do
“Alright then!” I said grabbing the bottle.
To be honest I’m not really into alcohol so I barely drank two shots and I was already feeling dizzy.
My head was spinning and Harry was getting drunk as well.
“Oh my God, this movie sucks!” Harry said chuckling
“Is not my fault ok?!” I shouted, my words barely getting out of my throat
“Of course it is! You and your girly movies!” He laughed
“Oh fuck you Harry!” I said pushing his chest
“Oh you wanna fight your annoying little girl?!” He said tickling me
We stood there teasing each other a couple of minutes but as the minutes passed the touch was becoming more eager.
At this moment we were lying on his couch. Harry’s on top of me staring deeply into my eyes which is making me feel a bit uncomfortable. I try to push him to get out of that situation but he holds my wrists immobilizing me.
I try to get out but he’s stronger than me, obviously.
He stands there staring at me, not moving a muscle. Even with the alcohol messing with my mind, I knew what was about to happen and that simple thought gives me chills.
Like in slow motion Harry’s face starts to move towards mine. I was confuse and not knowing what to do.
Well, not that I actually could with him on top of me, pressing his body against mine.
His lips softly brushed against mine making me feel goosebumps.
I didn’t particularly want it to happen, but then again I didn’t want it to stop. I was powerless… Tired from the late evening, dizzy from the alcohol, confused by his body!
It was as if I was witnessing the scene without being in it. Waiting to see what would happen next. I was a spectator of my own life!
He grabbed the back of my thighs and pulled me down on to him. He started to kiss me passionately and I kissed back as if I was on autopilot.
His hands exploring every part of my exposed skin.
Harry murmured something into the skin of my neck but I didn’t understood, his hands traveling aimlessly around my back and waist.
His breathe is becoming heavy as his touch.
The initial excitement starts to turn into awkwardness as the time passes and we still on his couch kissing.
I don’t really know what to do so I just follow his moves. A part of me was liking his touch but a other part isn’t comfortable at all with this whole situation since Harry is my best friend and we’re here making out on his couch drunk!
His hand slowly goes down a bit impatiently but I almost instantly push it back nervously.
Thought the night Harry keeps trying to get into more and I keep not letting our kisses become something more knowing that I’ll regret of what we’re doing in the morning.
But at the same time I’m becoming more and more passive of what’s going on. I like his touch and I like to feel him but at the same time I’m afraid that this will probably ruin our friendship.
Harry in the other hand seems much more relaxed. He keeps exploring me like if he could do that the whole night and I honestly don’t know for how long I’m going to be able to control myself.
Chapter 5
I woke up in the morning with Harry lying beside me and thank God we’re fully clothed. Harry’s hand it’s around my waist and he’s still sleeping.
The sunlight coming through the window burns my eyes making me squeeze it as I look for my bag.
I try my best to be in silence so Harry will not wake up but I needed to be the usual me and I drop a bottle that was next to me and to be honest even the neighbors might heard!
Shit…
“Hey…” Harry said rubbing his eyes
“Erm… hey” I said awkwardly
“Where are you going?” He asked confused
“Uh… college” I simply replied trying not to look in his eyes
“Wait, I’ll drive you there!” He said getting up and walking towards the bathroom
“No, its ok I can catch a bus!” I said trying to get out of that house without his company for obvious reasons.
“Hold on 5 minutes and I’ll be ready!” He said and I heard him turning the shower.
“Shit” I whispered to myself while sitting in the edge of the bed
After a few minutes he comes out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel.
Jesus, can life be less awkward please?!
I’ll wait for you downstairs; I said leaving the room as fast as I could.
Oh God, I will never regret of something as much as I’m regretting last night! Thanks to that I’m acting like stupid around him
Yeah, I’ve seen Harry wrapped in a towel thousands of times but we used to be friends and no ‘kiss mates’, ok?!
But now I have no idea how I’m supposed to be ‘me’ around him anymore.
“Ready?” He asked interrupting my thoughts
“Yeah…” I simply replied picking my bag and leaving the house.
The whole way I stood there awkwardly sat next to him in the car not knowing what to do or what to think.
As we arrived the front of my college I quickly opened the door saying a goodbye without even looking at his face and I’m not sure if he noticed that I was avoiding make any eye contact with him because seconds after I received this text from him:
“May I ask you why you were so quiet this morning? –H x”
I didn’t know what to reply so I just found a way to lie without getting too awkward
“I have a exam now, nothing much though –I x”
“Hmm, well good luck then, see ya in my house at 8? –H x”
“I don’t think so… mum won’t be happy if I don’t dinner there tonight again –Ix”
I lied knowing that my mum doesn’t really care where I eat as long I tell her.
“Don’t’ you dare? I have a surprise for you! ;) –H x”
Surprise? Oh God, reading that made me cringe
“No way, I hate surprises and you know that!” I texted and he didn’t replied making me feel more nervous than before
-
The whole day I’ve been worried about this surprise thingy that Harry said that he would do. My plan was to avoid him as much as I could but he’s clearly not making things easy for me!
After a long day studying I walk slowly down the road but before I could reach the bus stop a black car parks on my side making me cringe since I already knew who it probably was.
“Hey babe!” Harry said grinning
I sigh and look inside the car “What are you doing here?” I asked quite rude
“Making sure that you’ll go straight to my house to see my little surprise!” He said smirking
“Oh God Harry…” I said as I opened the door entering the car
After a few minutes we reach his flat and we slowly walk till the elevator.
Harry was with a suspicious smile on his face that was making me cringe.
“Harry I swear to God that if you…” I said but he opened the door interrupting my sentence.
I didn’t notice anything different so I just walk slowly till his living room carefully and prepared for anything that might appear.
“Hey!” A softly voice said as I reached the room
“Uh… Hey” I said trying to recognize that tall and blonde girl sat in his couch
“I’m Ash!” She said grinning
“I’m Ivy, nice to meet you” I said trying to sound polite but I was quite confused
“I know… Harry talks a lot about you. Like… all the time!” She chuckled
I smiled awkwardly looking to Harry who was grinning showing his cute dimples and staring at us.
I think Harry noticed my gaze because he walked towards the girl wrapping his left arm on her waist and grinning
“Ash is my girlfriend and I thought it was already time for my girlfriend to know my bestfriend!” He said almost making me choke.
I tried to say something but my words was stuck in my throat.
“So…”He asked chuckling
I faked a smile and tried not to show how surprised I was with that news!
“Oh, that’s awesome” Was the best I could say since I was stunned with this situation.
“I think you girls should sit and talk, ya know… maybe you can get to know each other and stuff!” he said like if everything was perfectly fine.
“Oh… uh… I have a curse work to make and I’m kinda tired already so… maybe tomorrow?” I asked trying to escape.
“Oh sure…” She smiled
“Sorry, I… text you later” I said to Harry and walked as fast as I could to the front door leaving them behind.
I walked down the street confused. My head was a mess and I was trying to figure out what just happened there.
So Harry has a girlfriend… That’s great. I mean… That would be great if it was two days ago but last night we… Oh my God.
I take a deep breath tying to organize my thoughts.
So Harry has a girlfriend. He was already dating this girl last night. We did things last night. But that doesn’t matter, right? RIGHT?
I’m not feeling jealous or angry I’m just feeling… confused. I was already confused with him acting like if nothing happened last night which I wasn’t that worried though since that was a horrible mistake.
I don’t feel anything about Harry. In my mind we are just friends and I hope we will stay like that for a long time but if he was already with this Ash girl then that means he…Cheated on her with me!
Oh God.
Chapter 6
Ivy’s P.O.V
Harry its texting me since I left his house. I didn’t reply and I’m not planning to do it.
I mean, I don’t even know how I am supposed to look at him after this whole ‘situation’.
“Honey I’m going to the mall” My mum says opening my bedroom’s door.
“ok” I replied
“Oh and by the way your friend it’s downstairs…” She said and left the room
“What?” I asked running after her “Wait mum, what friend?” I asked grabbing her arm nervously
“The only friend that you have” She said sarcastically making me raising an eyebrow
“Really mum? I don’t appreciate your sarcasm”” I said giving her a look
“Sorry, it’s Harry!” She said chuckling
Oh, shit… I thought while walking downstairs.
“Hiya” He said grinning
“Hey” I simple said back
“Where’s your phone?” He asked looking at my hands
“Uh… I don’t know, probably in somewhere of my room. Why?” I said confused
“Well, I’ve been texting you the whole day and you didn’t replied yet so you’ve probably lost it in somewhere of your room, as you said” He said sarcastically
“I really don’t appreciate anyone’s sarcasm today” I said taking a sit on the couch
“What happened?” He said laughing and sat next to me
I looked at him surprised that he doesn’t have a clue about why I’m acting this way. Is he even serious?
“Nothing” I said annoyed looking to the other side of the room.
“why are you ignoring my texts then?” He asked with a serious expression on his face now
I just sighed.
“Ivy, C’mon…” He insisted even more
“UGH, okay Harry so you want to know what’s wrong?! Well… last night we kissed and no, we were not supposed to do that and then you act like if everything is fine and normal but is not! And I’ve been ignoring your texts and calls because I didn’t want to talk about that because it would be quite embarrassing, I don’t know. But then you get’s me a ‘surprise’ and this little surprise is a GIRLFRIEND?” I said and he just stood there looking at me for a few seconds but then he started to laugh making me feel even more annoyed.
“Oh my God Ivy, you’re mad because of that?” He said laughing
“Yeah??!!” I said sarcastically
“Ivy, we were both drunk and having fun… Friends of opposite sex were made to do that!” He said laughing
“What?” I asked confused
“Yeah, don’t worry your pretty little mind! I didn’t cheat on Ash!” He said as if that was the most normal thingy ever
“Yes you did!” I said getting nervous
“No, I’m allowed to kiss you and I wont be cheating my girlfriend” He said chuckling and that was pissing me off
“So I can tell her that we were eating each others face last night?” I asked sarcastically
“What? Of course you can’t do it but we can have some fun if she doesn’t know about that!” He said grinning
“Oh my God, Harry you’re disgusting!” I said and ran upstairs locking myself in my room
He shouted at me but I just pretended I wasn’t listening.
After a few seconds he’s already knocking on my door.
“Ivy, please, open the door!” He said but I kept in silence. ”C’mon Ivy, I was just kidding, stop being so childish!” He said sarcastically which made me open the door furiously and pretty much shout at his face things that destroyed me inside to say.
“You’re a dick Harry! Go away and do us a favor, forget me and if you see me again please, don’t even say hello!” after saying that I closed the door and lied in my bed pressing the pillow while I screamed my lungs out.
Yeah, Harry’s my best friend and I fucking need him more than anyone could imagine but the Harry who’s my best friend and helps me to get through the shits of my life isn’t that one who said those things. And to be honest I don’t even know what happened but I’m surprised that in two days things went down and now I’m by myself once again.
I listen my phone buzzing and is a text from Harry :
“fine, goodbye to you too. Btw Congrats Ivy, you pushed away another person of your life, good luck trying to find another stupid to listen about your depressive thoughts!”
After reading that I threw my phone against the wall of my room and cried myself to sleep, as usual but more painful this time.
